the endless bliss
sinking deeper and deeperinto a pit of despairfeelings of hopelessnessdreading uselessnessactions of isolationthoughts of abandonmentif only it could be as simplelike walking is for a crippleundeniably urgent tasksprocrastination until surrenderdeep is the shadow castforward across the landscapeever darkening my paththe light dims and growswhat is this fuel that drives mewhat is the reason for everythingnothing […]
take a look
look at what makes me happya look at what makes me tickam i ok or am i really sickanticipation is what is killing meimagining alternate scenarioshas become my realityi live in a perpetual state of fearthat can never be satiatedbecause the future is always nearendless universal possibilities persistfeeding off of every outcome from previous historybut […]
going nowhere fast
i had dreams and ambitionsor are they just delusionsi don’t see me going anywhere nowi don’t see me doing anything nowi’m a miserable wrecki was standing when i hit the deckso hard, lost all momentumnervous and scared the only constantone of billions yet a billion to noneis this not a face in the crowdi am […]
original sin
in a free fallalways have beenemergency callstill here even wheni feel i’ve lost it allcan’t shake original sin