the endless bliss
sinking deeper and deeperinto a pit of despairfeelings of hopelessnessdreading uselessnessactions of isolationthoughts of abandonmentif only it could be as simplelike walking is for a crippleundeniably urgent tasksprocrastination until surrenderdeep is the shadow castforward across the landscapeever darkening my paththe light dims and growswhat is this fuel that drives mewhat is the reason for everythingnothing […]
take a look
look at what makes me happya look at what makes me tickam i ok or am i really sickanticipation is what is killing meimagining alternate scenarioshas become my realityi live in a perpetual state of fearthat can never be satiatedbecause the future is always nearendless universal possibilities persistfeeding off of every outcome from previous historybut […]
going nowhere fast
i had dreams and ambitionsor are they just delusionsi don’t see me going anywhere nowi don’t see me doing anything nowi’m a miserable wrecki was standing when i hit the deckso hard, lost all momentumnervous and scared the only constantone of billions yet a billion to noneis this not a face in the crowdi am […]
original sin
in a free fallalways have beenemergency callstill here even wheni feel i’ve lost it allcan’t shake original sin
An Apologist that is Unapologetically Sorry.
Sums it up nicely, when it all becomes too much and I trapped myself in my expectations of what I expect to happen and slowly over time, that constraint, that border shrinks, slowly suffocating me in all my responsibilities. Responsibilities which are just life, just basic human being taking care of life responsibilities. The anxiety […]
Jesus wept
where do we goand at what costintentions show when human rights are lostwhere do we go and at what costintentions showwhen human lives are lostthis silence hurtsscared to speak uptheir pain is worsethis empathy, a cursenothing so wrong we can’t make rightlife is not livedin black and whitethe struggles’ realneedless fightwhen people are killedstanding up […]
cut the kids some slack
what’s wrong with parents these daysto me, what a dismayto see them treat their children the way they dotreating them like a piece of shitstuck to the sole of their shoejust waiting for the day when their child leavestrying to convince themselvesmaking themselves believethat what they did was rightthinking everyone is blind at sighti see […]
god knows
god knows how hard it is to live, alivein a constant state of hatebut what else can we do but survive? really?what can we do?i will tell you what we can fucking doall this hateit ain’t shitso stop putting up a frontand drop it, you are full of itbit by bitwe are all turning into […]
boring and tired
boringnothing but boringi am so boringtoday is so boringi wonder why i’m so boringthen i started snoringmaybe it’s because i’m boringnothing but boringi’d rather be tirednothing but tiredof everyone tiredof being tiredi’m so tired of being bothered
untitled (again)
help me make it through this daythis day i can not seei don’t know how long i’ll staybut i’m sure as hell going to be melike it or not, it’s your choicewhether or not i care, that’s my choicenow i watch you go by searchingfor direction in your lifefinding nothing in your heartbut a compass […]